21st June 2013 10:21pm
6 oz bottom shelf port wine. 16.9 oz 'purified' water. Two packages ramen. Zero cigarettes (day 4). It's the solstice and after my 15th attempt at practicing some venomous staircase wit I realized the truth whilst driving back to the apartment. Over any other person I exert no real power (Platitude #1 I am only 1 of 7 billion people on this planet; a grain of sand on an endless shore, and thusly I am not unique or important. However, when it comes to me and my control over myself, how I feel, think and act, I am THE FUCKING SORCERER OF LIFE!)
It occurred to me only a little while ago to abstain from porn as it is now superfluous and is as thoughtlessly and involuntarily consumed by me as water. Part of the beginning of this blog is to mark the date for that change specifically. The other is to have this digital document stand as something of a monument self-constructed. A reminder of the creative power I can exert. Whether any other takes interest in this pursuit, I can't bring myself to care. Now to see if I'll make it to entry 2.